after a WHile again little something. . about my dumb life, or dumb me

umm .. well yeah. what to say now then. umm , maybe that . that i have really heaps of oing at the mo , which like should be good , but its kinda isnt. just cos i cant run or orienteer any more. and thats a bit depressing :S cos i really wanna do well and i jsut cant cos well.. see the reasons above. so yeah. thats kinda my main problem in my life at the mo. i think... i mean yeah , of course theres the problem with that that bryn isnt here and i miss him. but well ok , i kinda cant do much about that right now.yeah, i can be really sad about it and cry and cry and so on. but then again .. whats the point. its not like hes gonna be closer cos of that. and its just gonna make my life more miserable. so yeah. i kinda have made a decision , not to be sad (not too often anyway) and then another one , not to get too ( should i say , that) grumpy after bad oing event!!