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umm.. well. i guess i should write then something. hmmm, ok . have to think about what. maybe about my life. heh,well. what about it.. i´m not even too sure. like just, its somehow a bit confusing. im not too sure how i feel at all. somehow i feel like im in such a stress, but then again i dont have much to stress about really so dont know where that feeling comes from. cos my life is pretty ok at the moment. gonna graduate uni very soon, then have few weeks of holiday at home doing nothing probably (hopefully sunbathing :)) and then on 20th of june have my graduation. yay. i think. heh.. its weird really. well just cos.. hmm graduating uni!? hmmm.. puts me to think about what have i learned here then? hah. not much i dont think. at least doesnt seem like. and then other stupid thing is that i wonder why do people say that uni time is the best time of ur life and blabla so on.. cos if i think about it then well, i dont think (and hope) that it wasnt The best time of my life cos it wasnt nothing that great. well yeah ok, i have to remeber and mention there was some good times during this 5 years of study. but still nothing that great i wouldnt say. so yeah.. i think its a dumb saying that uni time is The best time of ur life! so yeah... i do agree with that saying which says something like one has to study he´s/her whole life. that i agree with. cos i dont know it just seems right. and i would feel so weird if i wouldnt study more in my life. that would be so weird. heh. but hmm well who knows, maybe i wont study any more. thou yea, i really dont believe that cos im pretty sure i wanna know more about the area i´ve been engaged in . would be pretty cool if i could do some more study in nz, maybe not just right now when im going over, but a bit later. i think it would be fun :) well, have to see... cos really, just not that sure about my plans yet and have to talk them throuhg with someone ;) hehe
so yeah.
ummm then should say few words about my other part of life. that is oing of course. hah. hmm well im not too sure what to say about that. just that its not going (still) all that well at all and yeah i guess i´ve given up really. meaning im not hoping anything any more and doing it just cos... well cos im use to.. hehe. pretty good reason aye. yeah i know im just so clever :D ok, actually the opposite. cos if i would be so clever then i would know how to oier aswell but hmm.. i think i dont know (well i think thatswhy i suck at oing cos i just dont know how to do it..so yeah). hmmm.. so yeah thats all about that. it is still important part of my life cos it would be so weird with out it but yeah im clever enough not to hope anything of it ay more and it seems that my life is so much easier after i understood that. so yay to me. hehee
ok. thats all. for now.